Close to my heart

Peeking through the Pinhole

01/25/2018 09:23:00

The people who have peeked through the pinhole

to the secrets of the universe

discover there is nothing to fix,

nothing to change.

They experience a peace,

a grounded understanding

that cannot be conceived

until it can be.

These people hold you where you are,

you feel perfect and whole and loved.

Loved as if you've seen the secrets with them,

because they know somewhere inside us all

they are there to be rediscovered.

To be re-awoken.

There is nothing to teach me

and everything I want to learn from them.

This is the higher dimension beyond space and time

that calls me home to remember the truer truths.

It is the other side of suffering

It is the perfection of chaos and the bliss of oneness.

Although I journey there,

a truer truth is that I am there

and it's only the reawakening

that is called forth in me.

Yes, you...

01/15/2018 09:14:00

Because you've been where you've been...

Struggled, fallen, crushingly curled around your clenched belly,

your face contorted and mottled with a cry so deep

that only convulsive guttural sounds could take form...

you may think you are unworthy. Unworthy to be a voice, to be a leader...

that your broken mess disqualifies you amongst the sea of "together game changers".

But the world is broken and it needs leaders that understand intimately this fact.

The world needs your hope and hope doesn't live in a perfectly coiffed life.

Hope lives in the mud and pain of your undoing.

Hope lives in you...

that the world has fallen around your feet and you have risen over and over.

Because we don't need another inspired sports analogy

or an over enthusiastic monologue.

We need you...

real, broken, awkward, true and transparent. Because the idea of being any other way than you causes a subtle retch to wash over you.

The world is done with plastered smiles and talk show voices

because we are haemorrhaging.

Assessing our wounds is a form of triage, this is not a place for USO performers but a place for people willing to get knee deep in it.

White teeth and painted on bronzers are the last gasp of a world that does not want to know itself, masks that are no longer sustainable.

And when the masks come off you will see that all those "together game changers"

were broken too and they will need you to show them how to navigate that vulnerability, how to navigate authenticity.

Your hesitance is actually reverence for the undertaking, which just underscores your qualifications for the task ahead.

Do you see? Your whole life has led to this moment. The world needs you...

now.

❤️Merrily

A call to the divine feminine in all of us.

12/23/2017 09:47:00

We can no longer afford to be nice (Nice defined as pleasing, agreeable, polite, socially acceptable)

or angry for that matter.

Men and women cannot solve the imbalance of an over masculinised planet with masculine solutions.

We are all accountable. The divine feminine is not a women's trait, but a human trait just as is the masculine.

Not another second of sacrificing our wisdom to placate or inflame the out of control ego.

The planet desperately needs us to re-embrace the natural state of

feminine Grace.

Grace is forgiving, compassionate, kind, humane, tender-hearted, sympathetic, patient, tolerant, generous, thoughtful, charitable...

We will find our Grace and empower it with Love.

Anger, righteousness, criticism are all fear quivering underneath a puffed out chest. The ego wants you to be outraged, wants you to believe Love is weak, impotent, soft and fluffy. But it is the surging energy of a mother who summons the strength to lift a car from her trapped child. Love is the fierceness that holds someone so dearly that they will challenging them again and again to be accountable to their highest self.

It's time and you can feel the roaring force that will not turn back or cower. It all coming out in the open, the putrefying dysfunction of racism, sexism, homophobia, the raping of our resources... Once buried in the shadows, there is no way to avert our gaze one more time. Move into your courage and Grace and formidable power and take back your divine sovereignty to be whole.

Holy Intervention

12/23/2017 09:30:00

You know that past you've been keeping in the back of the closet?

The lies you've got tucked under the bed?

Those secret dreams of changing the world the you've tied up in a silk purse

and keep close to your heart?

Those things that have been pulling to be shared, confessed, lived?

The more they've pulled, the harder you've hidden them?

Well, the universe has just become your friend with no filter. That friend you trust to love you unconditionally with all your secrets is about to spill the beans.

Why? Because you are loved...

and all that holding in,

the secrets,

the self loathing,

the unfulfilled dreams

are making you sick and small.

You are so loved that you will be gifted with a Holy intervention.

Tough love...

Remember that, when it gets ugly and vulnerable and your ego thinks you're going to die.

When you're scratching at the walls desperate to dive into your chosen addiction,

your chosen escape,

and you can't unlock the door,

remember you are loved wholly and completely.

Right now you can choose to step into that room with the blinding lights of truth,

the stark walls of reality and surrender.

Make peace with yourself over and over.

Or you can wait to be dragged kicking and screaming.

Either way you're going in and you will come out transformed.

-❤️Merrily

Not so much psychic as...

10/28/2017 14:14:00

Trying to put words to my gifts and I get all Spock about it...

I process complex information, seeing it in 3+-dimensions,

using myself as a neutral third person observer who observes the first observer.

I use, analyse and manipulate the field to shift suffering, create breakthroughs and manifest material and non-materially.

The most humbling and grace fill aspect is when I am directed through the field to serve strangers in a way that would be most closely called kismet.

I am passionate about creating and providing tools that allow people to independently observe, shift and clear their suffering. I have been gifted a large toolbox of skills that I teach, showing people how hack the field.

I also experiment with and design complex frequencies customised to shift specific types of human conditions to higher vibrational states.

Gratitude

10/28/2017 14:09:00

Gratitude, to me, is not about being blind to the pain in the world, it about being mindful about the beauty.

Exercising my eyes and ears and heart to notice the gorgeous events unfolding around me.

The Universe Breathing

09/15/2017 16:14:00

I am... whole, I am... broken

I am... suffering, I am... bliss

I am... everything, I am... nothing

I am... human, I am... spirit

I am... singular, I am... all that is

This is the universe

Breathing in... Breathing out...

Through you.

You ARE the universe breathing.

Don't dismiss the inhale,

don't fight the exhale.

To deny the dichotomy is tantamount to holding the breath of the divine flowing through you. Surrendering to the rhythm, is to bring the breath in sync with all that is.

Whether you're consciously aware or not you are infinitely lassoing light waves and manifesting them into particles, into being, with simple intention. Begin to flow with the tragedy and ecstasy, all the fullness and the emptiness that is your spirit embodied.

The breath is synchronicity, and you'll find this is where you can begin to effortlessly tap into your divine Grace. This is where all forms of magic and miracles happen.

Remember all that you are

and

Breathe...

Gender Evolution

09/15/2017 16:11:00

Women and men are naturally being pulled from the gender extremes and converging into beautiful fluidity along the continuum. This is an evolutionary change mirrored in society. There is actually a powerful delineation mark of masculine versus feminine in men between Baby boomers and Gen X. (Men born in or before 1964 versus Men born in or after 1965.)

If you hold tight to the old paradigms your life will draw to you challenges over and over to help you break open.

If you'd like the gentler path. Begin today to question your stories about what it is to be a man. Question your stories about what it is to be a woman.

Begin to deconstruct the gender caricatures that were passed down. Don't just ask how you hold yourself back, ask how your stories restrict your partner, children, family, society...

I'm often shocked at the stories ingrained in my history that fall out of my mouth unquestioned. I am so grateful for those that stand up and shout "The emperor is naked" and wake us up to our rote blathering.

Mud and Questions

09/15/2017 16:04:00

I write about things, not because I've master them, but because I'm wrestling with them. Turning them over and looking at them this way and that. Never a place of completion, just lots of mud and questions.

The Landmark Forum

11/14/2015 09:34:00

This was the beginning of my journey of enquiry into my life. From attending the very first children's program for EST through Landmark, workshops and finally the revised Landmark Forum. This work reverse engineers your sh*t and leaves you awake to the games we play in life. It opens you to the ability to create your life rather than be a victim of the idea "it's just the way I am". If you're tired of being at the mercy of life and are ready to take responsibility for the way it shows up, then this is a powerful place to begin.

Be forewarned, this is not for the faint of heart. I've seen people's ego hijack their efforts more than once, from an uncontrolled need to sleep through the course, emotional outbursts, anger and even storming out and quitting. Be ready and own what comes up and you will come out the other side truly transformed.

http://landmarkforum.com/